meansnotwelcome

"cry out, deaf ears your decay"

2006-03-05T04:28:23Z

Revival

Familiar terms

FUCK YOUS TO EVERYONE

meansnotwelcome @ 2005-01-05T21:49:00

2005-01-06T04:52:37Z

whos going to agnostic front on the 18th
ill be there cuase thats the first hardcore band i ever heard

meansnotwelcome @ 2005-01-05T17:31:00

2005-01-06T00:33:54Z

I withdrew from Tucson High yesterday
I have a few more days off
call me i dont want to stay home all day
tgk practice was really good

FUCK YOU AND YOU AND YOU AND YOU AND YOU

2005-01-04T18:36:46Z

life needs progress
without it you just exist to exist, which is disgusting
it seems like standing still is the way of this society
fuck that
ive made some moves regarding my future lately mainly becuase i dont want to stand idle
i need to be moving forward always
fuck what i lived for so long
Im gonna be happy and progress in this life and im goanna take risks and even be reckless
I just want to live and some people wont support that and Im not angry about that just dissapointed that they don't get it cause theyd be happier if they did

Much Love and my support in your pursuit of happiness
-Samuel

meansnotwelcome @ 2005-01-03T22:51:00

2005-01-04T05:56:14Z

FUCK

Its not your fault

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bikes are fun
the earth crisis cover was amazing i love covers as of november of last year
i guess no school until thursday
mike v. is an amazing man
maybe ill start doing good posts this year.............
no probably not

I dont like Best Buy if you go there or are planning on it i have a $25 gift certificate that id take $20 in cash for seriously if your gonna go there get it from me its a free $5

its raining

-samuel

meansnotwelcome @ 2005-01-02T22:26:00

2005-01-03T05:28:48Z

seven generations and fortunate son were real good

i dont start school until wednesday

Jan 2nd at The Baordwalk

2004-12-31T18:59:25Z

Sunday Jan 2nd

xSEVEN GENERATIONSx
FORTUNATE SON
+special guests

In the basement of the Boardwalk Cafe
47 N. 6th Ave.

starts @ 8pm
$5

Don't miss out on 2 of Cali's best bands.

2004

2004-12-31T18:03:27Z

Probably the most ridiculous year of my life, more on that later

25 Albums:
In no paticular order

1- Pig Destroyer- Terrifyer--
2- Jimmy Eat World- Futures
3 -Desert City Soundtrack- funeral car
4- Terror- one with the underdogs
5- Red Sparowes- at the soundless dawn
6- Backstabbers Inc.- Kamikaze Missions
7- Dillinger Escape Plan- MIss Machine
8- Breather Resist- Charmer
9- Hot Cross- fairtrades and fairwells
10- The Western States- trouble in the union
11- Misery Signals- of maile and something
12- Great Redneck Hope- behold the fuck thunder
13- Bleeding Kansas- 1859
14- Takaru- there can only be none
15- The Kinison- what are you lsitening to?
16- Folsom - s/t
17- The Warriors- War is hell
18- Sex Positions- s/t
19- Tilly and The wall- wild like children
20- Blood Brothers- Crimes
21- Fear Before The March of Flames- ast damage
22- Casey Jones- the few the proud the crucial
23- Sounds LIke Violence- the pistol
24- Mare- the mare ep
25- Im leaving this spot open for the albums i forgot about and what not

meansnotwelcome @ 2004-12-30T10:29:00

2004-12-30T17:33:47Z

i was in trouble then i wasnt

Cambridge did real good probably the best snare sound anyone has ever had at skrappys came from brians snare

crappy half ass metalcore emo bands from Cali, California sucks, fuck Califronia

Me and Jake have a show at Boardwalk at 6:30pm on New Years Eve at The Boardwalk its just us so come out and its early so come and then go do stuff

"Fuck not lest ye be fucked"

2004-12-28T06:57:14Z

THe Goodbye Kiss has a show tomorrow at Skrappys itd be great if you could all come

thanks

-Samuel

on other notes ive been sick, fuck being sick

Zia purchases:
Against Me! dvd -its real good
Hot Cross- fair trades and farewells
Casey Jones- the few, the proud, the crucial

meansnotwelcome @ 2004-12-25T10:01:00

2004-12-25T17:05:02Z

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
FUCK CHRISTMAS
I GOT A MOSH CYBMAL I MEAN CHINA CYMBLA AND OTHER SHIT
OBLIGATION IS FUN
I TRIED TO BE POSITIVE THIS MORNING BUT IM SUCH AN ASSHOLE
IM A HUGE ASSHOLE
LIKE A GIGANTIC ONE
MY FAMILY LAUGHS AT THE STUF I SAY BUT I KNOW THEY THINK IM A HUGE ASSHOLE
XWOOTX XMOSHX XGAYX XFUCKYOUX

I GOT A DRUG FREE SWEATSHIRT TO

HAVE FUN FAGGOTS
I LOVE ALL OF YOU
BUT YOU KNOW IM STILL AN ASSHOLE

PETE SIAD IT BEST WHEN HE SIAD IM THE """""""" THE NICE ASSHOLE """""""""""

meansnotwelcome @ 2004-12-25T06:50:00

2004-12-25T13:51:42Z

im ready to go now i want to leave right now and go
you know who you are lets go right now

clifton i think that would be amazing

meansnotwelcome @ 2004-12-25T06:20:00

2004-12-25T13:21:37Z

BITTERWSEET...

meansnotwelcome @ 2004-12-25T05:30:00

2004-12-25T12:36:44Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS

i ruined my neck i think i slept for maybe like an hour the entire night

Christmas can be really crappyy for some people and to those people that I know I really want you to enjoy yourself and be happy

Ive been at my moms house sinceyesterday afternoon, its real annoying here, i mean i love my family but shit its so choatic all the time

meansnotwelcome @ 2004-12-23T20:25:00

2004-12-24T03:30:35Z

recorded a little today in the afternoon
did lots of chores and shit
im stuck at home tonight boring
im really into screamo again (and no not the shit that so many have labeled screamo)

The show last night was really really fun and good

The Cory Felchman Horror Extravaganza- good, they couldnt mix it correctly but it was fun song 4 has one of the best samples ever

Six Gun Sweetheart- i really liked this band they even played an Op Ivy cover that was way fun

XFistfightX- power went out like 4 times but these guys are alaways good

Set Your Goals- really positive pop punk hardcore that was a blast they covered a Kid Dynamite song that was cool

Make Move- these guys were amazing it was a pretty brutal set

Warriors- this band just rules

The Basement owns i alaways have fun there DIY shows own

"I drink the fluids of the dead"

2004-12-22T23:17:29Z

THANKS AMBER FOR THE BOOKS

i got 3 Daniel Quinn books
Ishmael
The Story of B
and My Ishmael

Warriors tonight

fuck yous:
old people who cant drive
all city never being open
shitty bands
shitty kids
waiting around at home
wind
being sorta cold but to warm for a jacket
christopher reeves, rot you fucking peice of shit
being bored
Christmas
not knowing what im doing this next semester
not skating

"What the fuck have we done"

2004-12-22T03:35:28Z

played with hired guns tongith thats really fun
got some christmas shopping done
fuck people
ragin
got this is hell on my 19th show they rule
fuck you

youre uninformed shut your fuckingasdohldskjl;fsk;klsfjsfrkgjfskgjklfg

2004-12-22T03:34:01Z

i stole this from matts myspace bulliten sadly i know many kids who are exactlylike this fuck these kids

1. Lift your truck on dirt tires, get a flowmaster XL4000
2. Put a bandana under your mest hat
3. put the coolest boat or motorcycle sticker on the back of your truck
4. get drunk and talk about how many beers you have had
5. go to glamis and havasu as much as possible
6. listen to atreyu
7. get a gnar nautical star tattoo
8. get ur labret pierced
9. constantly say sick
10. make sure to always give hard looks because ur tuff as nails
11. and when your done talking about how many beers you've had get in a fight even if you have nothing to do with it. oh and rip your shirt off
12. and make sure your g/f always wears a volcom beanie and a holister shirt
13. if a fight does happen make sure you jump at least one of the guys (those bastards) (oh and i feel i must)
14. never go anywhere without all your "bros", cause if you give people your "i'm a hardass" stare, they might just beat the shit out of you.
15. say 'bro' a lot. like every bro-fuckin word bro.
16. wear your sunglasses inside. or at night. bro.
17. Show everyone your new gigantic belt bucke. Preferably a buckle that has some kind of skull or star on it.
18. hit on every girl you see. and then hit on her friend (suggest you all go out together.) and then take a beer bong and say "THAT WAS SICK BRO!" and last but not least. call someone a tool and then laugh like a hyena. those fuckin morons.
19. start every sentence with"dude... bro" and make sure your studded belt is polished.
20.GET YOUR PENIS PIERCED.
21. Stick your pee pee in a motorcycle exhaust pipe when you get lonely. Do this while taking a beer bong for maximum dude-ness.
22. Do a Keg stand and then talk about how "SICK" your "TRIBAL" "TAT" is.....

OMG HOLY FUCKING SHIT

2004-12-21T20:07:09Z

The January 19th 2005 show has had some changes but its still fucking awesome

Jan 19th at The Boardwalk Cafe $6

Backstabbers Inc.-
(trash art records)- New Hampshire thrash grind hardcore, thats fucking pissed off and real

This Is Hell-
from Long Island- they play passionate hardcore/punk mixed with a little screamo, real screamo not the shit thats been labeled screamo they have a myspace:
http://profile.myspace.com/users/3805869

Blues For The Martyrs-
technical choatic metal hardcore, heavily influenced by Botch they rule they have a myspace http://www.myspace.com/bluesforthemartyrs

The Cory Felchman Horror Extravaganza-
3 peice grind they own
they have a myspace listen : http://www.myspace.com/felchman

Cambridge-
a rock n roll band that really like indie/screamo/hardcore/metal
there really solid

Starts at 7:00 $6

and it continues

2004-12-21T07:34:52Z

fuck fuck fuck.......................
im a pretty shitty kid

theres been a lot of amazing people lately who im fortunate enough to call my friends and ive fucked them over i hope i can be there and earn your trust becuase youve been there

havent updated in a while but who the fuck cares i never have anything to say
i miss my family but living with my dad has been healthy
i should go to counseling after christmas
i hope all of you kids have been doing good

i dont know what im doing next semester

theres a lot of good shows coming up i hope i can make it to all of them cause its were im most happy
good music good friends good times

Christmas may suck but it usually becomes my thanksgiving i feel so shitty and act so shitty especially in this time of the year and im often humbled by that fact that i have so much not stuff, but my friends my family and music and any sub culture that ive embraced

"Jan 19th 2005"

2004-12-21T01:14:45Z

Jan 19th 2005

Backstabbers Inc.(trash art records)- this band absolutly kills, they play thrash grind hardcore and its fucking pissed off more so almost any band ive heard

Blues For The Martyrs- really intense, heavily influenced by Botch, this band is amazing ,they have a myspace listen

The Cory Felchman Horror Extravaganza- 3 piece grind really good check out there myspace

Cambridge- very solid basically a rock n roll band that likes metal/indie/hardcore

@ The Boardwalk Cafe (on 6th ave a few stores north of Congresson the westside of the street, or across from the Romstadt Transit Center to the west starts at 7:00ish $6 or whatever you can get me

meansnotwelcome @ 2004-12-15T16:10:00

2004-12-15T23:14:35Z

I live at my dads now

call this number im always down to do stuff

207-5261

schools pretty much done im so glad im never going back to Tucson High

seriously call me up im always down to leave my house or just visit me

if youre going south on park just south of Grant look for Seneca to the west turn off park go down like 5 houses its 909 E. Seneca on the north side of Seneca its got a blue trim normally a white car in the driveway

i dont know seriously come visit me and call me school is no longer a priority

"B-S-I"

2004-12-14T23:17:58Z

You Are the Individualist

4

You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.

You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.

You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.

Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

What number are you?

"We don't owe you shit. We are not you fucking friends. Not now, Not Fucking Ever."

2004-12-14T05:33:55Z

I fucked up again and hurt someone i care a lot about

im moved pretty much permantly into my dads house
living there is really healthy my dad has become awesome after basically 14 years of being shitty hes awesome
Backstabbers Inc. rule
TGK recorded its going good
Im sorry
ECU
lots of good shows coming up
skating again a lot id really good
had like three anxiety attacks this weekend=fun
Sorry
Last 3 days at Tucson High i thought i was sad but no ill see evryone i like anyway outside of school fuck that place
Ill fix things
things are really looking up
hopefully all this fucking up will end by the end of the year these last few months have sucked a lot for various reasons
im learning how to deal with my anxiety sort of
i dont know lots to say maybe ill start posting more
sorry

Backstabbers Lyrics-------
Even Slaves Will Be Swimming In The Blood Of The Iron Fist Lyrics

I've come to realize there will be 9 to 5s for the rest of our lives, and that you'd
expect us to believe it doesn't get any better than this. Well, it does. Maybe not for the
ones in the warehouses and the cubicles who gave up, but for the ones who can look at
you and tell you're no better than a fucking pig handing out raffic violations.
We'll spend that forty hours working under that clipboad, under that seasonal review
that somehow decides what we eat for dinner, where we live, and how we get to these
nightmare conveyor belts. Don't shake our hands. This isn't family, and I'd spit in your face
if there weren't bills to pay. Keep searching. Keep fucking searching. For our appreciation,
for our respect, for our never ending devotion. And sooner or later you'll realize what we've
known for years. We don't owe you shit. We are not you fucking friends. Not now,
not fucking ever.

"

2004-12-09T05:24:47Z

things that suck:

Dimebag Darrel dying r.i.p. ill be playing pantera non stop for a while
some people
being broke

things that are awesome:

living at my dads house
my sister dropping by
how every dinner i eat with my family my at my dads or moms is guarenteed to be ridiculous
schools almost over
most of my friends
i havent fucked up a whole lot in almost a week